This is it! Opening my life is quite challenging and to even start writing it gives me a little chills on the back of my neck.
Where do I start? What is this all about? Why would I choose to share a little part of my life to the world when really; Who cares?? It's really nothing special, but maybe some of you can take something good out of it.
I am not a good story teller and add to that, I am not a gifted writer either.
I need to be honest, At this moment, while I am writing, my head is spinning and my brain is kinda building up of what we called a "mental pressure".
This is what I don't like when I start writing. All these "Think, translate to english, pause, type, erase, type again, erase, think again and pause, type and erase again."
If you can only see; My brain is actually bleeding inside and it's about to explode.
I guess the reason why I wanted to share a little bit of me is because I'm at the point of my life now where I feel the need to share something and I want you to understand that being real and true to ourselves doesn't make you indifferent.
I know it's never good to open up your life to anybody not even to the world. It's always better to just keep it to yourself or just keep it hidden somewhere in the woods of Mount Everest.
It's the law of nature that once you open your book to other people to explore and read, You are basically giving them the go signal to judge you as an individual and not only that you are also allowing them to see your scars, cuts and wounds.
When we are naked, that is where we are vulnerable to criticism and judgement. Some people would appreciate and admire you and some would hate you and just wouldn't understand you at all.
Funny as it sounds yet this is the world we live in, take it or leave it. People would always react in a different way and it's up to you how you are going to take it.
As for my decision to write and share about me. In some way, I am opening my doors to you and It's up to you too of how you are going to take it.
I am not perfect, just like my writing, everything is out of place. I guess you already noticed it. Yet I am trying my best to write as effectively and as good as possible so you can understand it at least. It's not gonna be perfect but I will try to accept my flaws in writing, just like how I accept my flaws in life so I can help some people to understand that life doesn't need to live it perfectly and that you don't need to be perfect to write a beautiful story of your life.
But as the law of human nature, I will try not to open my doors too wide. Some I will keep it hidden and some I will give it away. For a reason that there are things in life that it's not ready yet.
At the right given time, when it's my time to get out of my cocoon, that is where I am going to tell you my story as a whole of why and how that butterfly came out so beautifully!!!
While I'm still inside, I'll take you to my journey with me and I hope you will learn something out of it and maybe I can learn something about you too that you can share it with me.
So hold my hand so tight and follow my growth inside a cocoon..........I'll take you to a journey that will make you grow as well and will turn you into a beautiful butterfly too.
